Showing posts with label lazy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lazy. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Horrible cravings.

I have been having the most extreme salt and sugar cravings for the past month at least.  These last 2 weeks have mostly been extreme sugar cravings:  basically eating toast with jam, rice with jam, rice with almond milk and brown sugar, and jam.   They are all soo loaded with sugar it's insane and I'm never satisfied :[
Also I think I missed my period this month (knock on wood, last time I thought that I got it 5 days later) - maybe it's late again and I'm just having really long,  MAJOR pms cravings.
Who knows.
But I wish they would go away, it is so distracting and getting on my nerves.

Not a great photo, but it's rice, almond milk and mangoes - it's soo good and soo sweet.
 
Secondly:  started sewing again...kinda.  I set up my machine, and finally started cutting the fabric for my summer dress and a cute floral skirt.  The skirt is really simple and since it's just a elastic band at the waist I don't really need to worry about size.  The dress on the other hand I made smaller, because, well I want to be smaller.  I know sounds messed up, but it sort of motivates me :]

Thirdly,  I am absolutely lethargic, lazy, tired, not concentrated and really need to get my butt into gear.





Just a few randomish pictures that I feel relate to how I feel; I am tired and feel ignored, like everyone sees me as a human shape, but never actually sees me (the reason you can't see their faces).

Thursday, January 3, 2013

My days are spent sitting in bed on my butt.

I cannot wait for university to resume again.  I have spent the majority of the last 5 days in bed watching Miss Marple and Harry Potter  and knitting all the while I somehow miraculously managed to lose the 4 lbs I put on while at my parents house over Christmas (well I do eat comparatively less here than when I am back in my hometown).

Took this sweater from my brother when I was over at my parents house.  tee hee hee heee >:]

Also my family doctor called my house (my parents house - cause that's my permanent address) and no surprise - slightly anemic the test results say again.
But the sickest part about this whole little life of mine that I'm acting out is that I lie about almost everything. I just don't take my iron pills, I don't take my vitamins, I don't take my b12, I don't take my 1600 calories a day, but do I take my laxatives.  I smile, I nod, I empty the bottles, and if it's at my parents house I put the pills in my mouth but never actually swallow.  Simply put I don't want to get better, I want to get worse, I want to be this small, sickly looking girl.  I don't know why, I just do.


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