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I think my title to this post is quite original and is really, truly profound (I hope my sarcasm was detected).
Tired; I'm going to go to bed after I post this and will just wake up earlier to study. My last exam is tomorrow :] also my bunny is getting picked up by the pet sitter tomorrow </3 he'll be gone for 13 days ... my baby :[ but she volunteers at a shelter specialising in small animals, has a room especially for when she sits pets and has medication just in case they get sick so she seems trustworthy enough to leave my mumus wumus with.

After my exam I am doing laundry, washing my dishes, sweeping and generally cleaning out my room while rocking out to ABBA - my current musical obsession. Then I'm watching the rest of the Incredibles (if my internet decides to work properly) teehee  ^_^ I like movies ♥

And then on tuesday I am going to go to the gym and work out (first time in like a month, but I'm such an unmotivated person -_- ) and making sure everything's packed and cleaning out my bunnies cage and probably not going to sleep at all because on wednesday morning I'm flying home ♥♥♥ Beyond excited :"} ahhhhhhhhhhhh finally going to see my family and childhood friends in like 5 months - although I enjoy being independent and going out into the world, you do tend to get a bit of a longing for your family and friends. Also my mom makes the best potatoes (like sliced up and baked in a bit of olive oil with spices, carrots, onions, garlic and apples = absolutely delicious ♥) and they're very filling so I don't need to eat a lot of it.   And I'll finally see my baby #1 - my dog ♥  I miss him soooo sooooo soooooooooo much.  My puppy, my doggie woggie, my little wittle animal soul mate.  Honestly though, we are soo alike and we'd always get mad at each other and cuddle, and just generally be awesomely lazy together ♥. Also I think I've used too many ♥'s in this post - looks overly cheesy and corny - corny cheese......I need sleep, cause here I am rambling on about things.

I'm going to fail my exams.

I have 2 take home final exams due tomorrow/today and I'm not even halfway done.   I know that my purging and restricting always cause me to be groggy and always feel foggy headed, but it just feels so hard to write this.  It's sad because I know everything, and I'm writing it, but I feel like I'm pushing through a river against the current.  I just have to keep pushing, but I feel like it won't be the best :[ I'll turn off internet for now so I can at least finish 2 more essay questions on each before I head to the library (I'll catch the earliest bus in like 5 hours - so at like 5am).
Ciao ♥ won't be updating until after my art history exam on Saturday ♥

Test results are in and ....

I have GERD and IBS (and let's not forget my gastritis that was diagnosed in April), oh and abnormally low sodium and slightly anemic - but honestly, nothing to serious so I'm happy :] plus since I have official diagnoses (no one needs to know they are caused by my purging, shhh) no one will really suspect an eating disorder - well no one other than a doctor anyways.

so petite, so lovely - pictures like this make me feel disgusting with myself and my body ;[ 

Doing laundry today, because I haven't done laundry in goodness graciousness knows how long and I had no more socks or undies left......
Then going to go to the library in the afternoon to start and finish my take home finals ;[   really hoping I do well on them. Then it's studying for my art history exam on Saturday - which lord have mercy, because if anyone has ever taken an art history course before you'll know how brutal the exams are - you have to memorize ALL the artworks shown and discussed in class (def over 250 of them - including buildings) the time periods they're from, the artist, the styles, the importance and the place they come from.  I have such bad short term memory so it's non stop studying from tonight to Saturday morning.