I hate when I have horrible binge//purge cycles. I have eaten almost all the food I have (with exception of a few cans of beans and condiments such as ketchup and mustard). Not buying anything until Saturday evening, in attempts to curb my binges, because this has got to stop. Not exactly fasting, just going to be consuming absolute zero energy drinks, as well as some non-fat vanilla yogurt; also thinking of maybe doing an 8 day juice/tea detox to help relax/slightly heal my body after all the bingeing and constant purging (yes, this would mean I would not take laxatives for the duration of the fast). Not sure if I'll do it yet, but I'm considering it.
On the other hand, I am not sure whether to be pleased with my laxative abuse or terrified at how much I have been taking lately. A bit TMI, but for the last two days I have been going to the point where nothing, but these "sediments" come out; which I read means there's nothing more in the intestines to push out. Bad part of this is that when one increases an already abnormal number of laxatives to take daily, you find yourself in more pain than previously. And I mean stabbing, sharp, shooting, give you goosebumps sort of pain and the worse is when I get them at work. On the topic of laxatives I found this box at the pharmacy that says "purgative", it's about $17, and it says it's specifically for those doing a colonoscopy or intestinal x-ray/something else. I think I may buy it on Friday and use it since I don't work on Saturday (hopefully my roommate is not back/home on the Saturday, because I feel like I will be in the bathroom ALL DAY).
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