Bucketlist.

I have always said to everyone I know that I'm "young on the outside, but old on the inside" and although I do have hopes and dreams of finding the love of my life and having/adopting children I have always felt like I wasn't meant to live long.  It's just a feeling, but even when I was a kid I'd tell my mom I would definitely not be an old grandma and that I thought I'd live to a max of 50 maybe 60.  But as I have grown older I honestly don't see myself living past 40, maybe it's because I'm slowly killing my body through my purging and laxative abuse and although I have been a relatively healthy child my health has started to decline (most likely due to my behaviours like I said above).  Or maybe it's just because I have this feeling about it.  Silly, I know, to listen to a hunch or feeling but it's always been there and doesn't scare me, or maybe it's just all in my head who knows?

But I have decided to make a bucket list of things I'd like to do in my life, and I realize that somethings cannot always be done, but I would like to try and do most of them in my life - I will also include things I have already done that were on my list of goals.

• visit/swim in a Canadian ocean (north atlantic ocean) 
• visit/swim in a European ocean

• go skinny dipping
• move to Europe (after you finish your bachelors degree)
• try a fruitarian diet for at least a month
• learn about different religions and convert to one (jainism - buddhism?)
• legally change name to the way I'm called 
• spent time in a monastery in India/Mongolia and find inner peace

• volunteer at an orphanage in Africa
• learn Italian 
• learn Greek
• learn Arabic
• go sky gliding 
• find love
• climb a mountain 

• donate one of my kidneys (if they're healthy enough)
• adopt a child 
• have my own child 
• make a whole collection of my artworks
• make a site for my designs (clothing) and sell them 
• start a charity 
• have a love affair/hookup with a woman 
• have a love affair/hookup with an older man 

• make a private sex tape 
• help someone through a though time 
• get all the tattoos I want 
• go on an archaeological dig
• earn my bachelors degree
• help my parents lessen their debt
• grow my hair down to hips
• publish a book
• publish poetry 

• go on a cycling trip somewhere through Africa or Europe 
• stop self harming 
• volunteer at charity events  (ongoing)
• speak up against the unfair conditions that the Aboriginals live in 
• learn more about other cultures
• join in on a sand building contest 
• make a YouTube channel of any sort and update regularly
• find some closure between parents and yourself
• live in a big city 
• create a documentary of some sort
• be proud of my accomplishments
• to always be there for family (especially my siblings)
• go see an opera
• grow a garden
• make a piece of furniture 
• live in a warm country
• overcome my personal problems

I'm sure there's other things I will want to accomplish/will accomplish but this is a bucket list of my dreams and I'd be happy if I got most of them done ♥